My Journal- February - April 1997
Wed. April 23, 1997
I feel the need to tell you a story that involves my brother (Jon) and me today.Jon and I played together alot when we were younger, I'd even go so far as to say that we were always each others best friend. Jon isn't too much younger than me (3 years), so we were pretty good company for each other when we played.
Today, Jon and I like to try to remember different things we did and different games we made up. We had very active imaginations and played alot of made-up games as we weren't allowed to watch much TV. Also, remember, back then there were no video games or computers or VCRs to distract us. Plus, we lived in Wisconsin, and for much of the year it was too cold to play outside.
My favorite thing to play was "School" but Jon HATED it, of course. I was always the teacher, cuz, of course, I was smarter. Sometimes, in order to get Jon to PLAY school, I had to convince him either by threatening to beat him up or by promising to play his favorite game afterwards (which was "Star Wars"). I must admit, sometimes I would fib and say I would play Star Wars with him when I knew very well I would not just to get him to play School. He'd get pretty mad when he realized I wouldn't play his game with him. I cheated him! Today, I feel little pangs of regret for deceiving him this way, but at the same time we both laugh about it.
One thing my brother remembered and told me about the other day was all the flavored lip glosses I used to have. He LOVED (the smell) of them, and they were my prized posessions. One day I came home from school to find all my lip glosses maimed and bleeding! Someone had eaten my flavored lip glosses!!!! AHHHHH! To this day, Jon insists he didn't EAT them, but don't believe him. He did. He was a hungry boy! :-D
HAHA! You know another thing I just remembered?! LOL! I guess my brother and I thought that Mom and Dad didn't vacume our rooms enough, cuz every so often we'd play "FAST". What FAST involved was us each kneeling at our bedroom doors with a toy dumptruck in hand. When I yelled GO, we'd crawl around frantically picking up little peices of paper and lint and putting them in our dumptrucks. Whoever finished first in picking up all the stuff off the floor won. We'd also play this game when we had to clean up our rooms. But the vacume one is much funnier. What a strange thing for kids to do...
Well, I could go on and on about all the games and strange things my brother and I did when we were younger, but I won't. I'm just really glad that, in general, my brother and I got along so well. It's fun to think back on all those memories, and they mean more to me every day. Now that my brother is getting older, they seem to mean a lot to him, too, and that makes me happy. It may be a strange thing to say, but I always want to think of my brother a best friend, no matter how old we get or how far apart we live from the other. My parents did a great job raising us, and I know I'm fortunate. I have the best brother in the whole world.
April 15th, 1997
Can you believe we're already HALF WAY through April! Whew!I just had to write because I saw the movie, The Saint, last weekend. It was really good! And I developed a not-so-school-girlish-crush on Val Kilmer. Have I just never noticed how HOT and incredibly sexy he is? Maybe it was the character that appealed to me, but I was drooling all over the place!
Anyway, when I got home, I had to watch Batman Forever and fast forward to any scene that had "Bruce Wayne" in it. I looked up Val Kilmer sites and found a list of all the movies he's been in, I've seen many of them, but it looks like I'm going to be spending a lot of money at the Video store trying to see everything 'Val' I can get my hands on.
Let me explain that Val has now moved up to spot number two on my list of incredibly scrumptious movie stars. He's actually passed up BRAD PITT (who's now at number 3)! Don't worry, Antonio Bandaras is STILL number One and always will be, but Val brings up a mighty tasty second.
Have I ever told you I think Gary Sinise is really cute? "You aint got no legs, Lieutenant Dan!"
Anyway, I guess I'm not really going anywhere with this.
One other thing I'd like to mention is that I did find a great place to move to with a friend (Jennifer). It's a condo and has underground parking and 1300 sq. ft (which is good for Dallas). It has two huge bedrooms and bathrooms. We're really excited about it, even though it isn't in the greatest of neighborhoods. Oh well, nowhere in the world is considered safe now anyway. We're moving in the Weekend of May 10th... I'm looking forward to it, even though it's going to be a HUGE change.
Well, I'm outta here. Adios, Amigos!
Wed. April 9, 1997
Hey Hey Hey! What do you say? I have some interesting news! I've invested in my first stock! Yes... it's true! I invested in Starbucks! (sbux). I bought 50 shares of it at $30½ each last Friday and it hasn't done a thing yet, but that's OK, I have faith that it will shoot up to 40 and make me a good profit. So what do I advise?? Drink lots of Starbucks coffee!!!!You know what's ironic? I HATE coffee. I think it's disgusting, but I want everyone to know that THEY have to drink it so my stock will go up! hehe!
What else exciting has been going on in my life?? Hmmm... oh yes, I MUST mention Family of Eagles. It's a Network Marketing company NOT like Amway or Excel or anything like that. It's better. You aren't required to buy anything if you don't want to. And every person you sell to not only gets wonderful, valuable gold coins that help to pay off the national debt, but they get a golden opportunity to make loads of money... and I mean loads!
Listen, I'm a very skeptical person when it comes to these things and am VERY cheap with my money AND hate sales, BUT this is such an awesome opportunity that I'd be STUPID not to give it a shot, I really have nothing to loose! The people I work with are making anything from $24,000 extra a year (less than part-time work) to $80,000 a WEEK (full-time)! I shit you not! Basically, if you work really hard for the first few months you have it made in the shade because it's a binary pyramid type of sales flow chart (THIS IS COMPLETELY LEGAL BY THE WAY). Once you and the people under me and the people under them and so on make 30 sales all put together I make $1500!!!!
So hypothetically, I only need to make two sales, then if the two people I sold to sell to another two people, then those two people sell to another two people and those two people sell to another two people, that's 30 sales all together and that's $1500 for me! The good thing is you don't have to sell chunks of 30, though, to make money. After 10 sales, you get $400, after an additional 10 sales you get another $500, then after an additional 10 sales (30 altogether), I get an additional $600 ($1500 all together). Plus there's bonus checks worth $700! That's $2200 a week! Not bad, eh?
Well, there's so much more to this, and many reasons why this is a great opportunity, but I can't possibly explain them all here. If you like I would love to send you a cassette tape and video tape that entertainingly describe more about this opportunity. Just send me an EMAIL! Better yet, I'd love to take you to a meeting where you can hear about it first hand!
Now don't get me wrong, there is no such thing as easy money, and I realize since I'm only doing this part-time there will be some time involved to make my initial sales, but once I do that and they start selling, then the people they sell to start selling, it will be alot easier... and that's about as easy as money gets. Please stay tuned to my Journal and I let you know my progress.
Well, I've rambled on enough. Have a great April!
Friday March. 14th
Well, most of you who know me already know... but I broke off the engagement with Nick this week. It's really weird. We also decided not to stay together at all, but will try to remain friends. It's very odd how your life can be one way one week, then completely different the next.I'd like to mention that I care for Nick very deeply. The decision to break up wasn't taken lightly by either of us, but it just seemed the inevitible and most reasonable thing to do. You may be wondering why we broke up, and it's very complicated, but mostly it has to do with trust and hope. It's too hard to put all this energy and life into a relationship that's destined to go nowhere because the other is not willing to try to change some very deep rooted self-admitted negative things about himself. I won't say what they are, I'll leave that to Him.
I really did think for a while there that he was the man that I was fated for... that I was destined to be with, but I guess there's no such thing because we control our own destinies. I decided to change mine when I decided to say "enough"; and I feel confident it was the right thing to do.
All I know is that my life is about to drastically change, so you may want to stick around and see what happens.
Friday Feb. 28th
Hi! I just realized it's the last day of February today! Cool.Anyway, last week and weekend I was in Orlando, Florida. Boy is it AWESOME there! In Feb. it's hot enough to go swimming and sun-tanning. I thought Dallas was warm, but Florida is just nuts! I was there on a business trip (sales conference) and it went well. I got to meet alot of our Vendors and our Sales people, everyone is so nice. CompuCom really is a fantastic company. The theme of this year's conference was "Retro". Stay tuned for some photos to show up in my photo album that were taken during the many parties I went to.
So anyway, I'm sick again. Sinus infection I suspect. What's the deal? Right now I'm so looped up on drugs though that I don't feel a thing. The weird thing is that the pills dried me up so much that I have no saliva. It's weird trying to eat food when you have no saliva.
Nick just told me that last night I was moaning in my sleep. LORD! He said everytime I'd breathe out, I'd moan like I was in pain. He said he told me to stop it, and I'd stop for a few minutes then start again. I asked him why he didn't just wake me up, and he said he thought I WAS awake enough to hear his requests. Evidentally not. Yeesh, I was probably having a horrible nightmare or something. I was so drugged that anything is possible, and the Ny-quil I had taken is probably why I never heard him asking me to stop.
So instead of waking me up enough to get me from my dream, what does Nick, my hero, do? Gets up and goes to sleep in the guestroom! That's right, he just let me moan all night long!
I woke up this morning to the horrible beeping of the alarm in our guest bedroom. MEEEP MEEEP MEEEP.... over and over! OH LORD SOMEBODY STOP IT! But Nick was in the shower and I was too commatose to actually get up and turn it off myself. MEEEP MEEEP MEEEP... Geez, Nick seemed to be taking an incredibly long shower; what's he doing in there anyway? MEEEP MEEEP MEEEP!
Let me explain how much I hate buzzing and beeping and meeping alarms. I need to wake up to the radio (playing music) or I will be irritable all day long. Just ask Laura, my roomate during the conference. She set the hotel alarm and when it went off at 6am it was like a fire engine racing through the room. I covered my ears and shreiked: "Make it stop! AHHH!" I felt kind of bad later about that, but I just can't handle it, man.
I've always liked to wake to quiet music. Not quiet as in classical, just quiet as in volume. I'm normally a very light sleeper and the slightest thing will wake me.
ANYWAY, back to my story... where were we? Oh yes... MEEEP MEEEP MEEEP! Finally the shower shuts off... will he hear it? No, the fan was on in the bathroom. I hear him brush his teeth and shave. The fan goes off. He's coming out! "Please turn it off." I ask politely. "Oops, sorry." He says as he scurries to the guest bedroom. AHHHH! Silence. Golden silence! It's so great... it's.... huh?
MEEEP MEEEP MEEEP!
The garbage truck pulls up to our apartments outside! NOOOO! I give up!!!